In Christ Alone

Tonight it came to my attention that I have no idea what I am doing.
I am not the who I think I am.

I always hurt the ones I love and that's why they always seem to distance themselves from me. Right now, the main thing I want is just someone to be close to. Really close to. Closer than anyone I know is willing to be with me.
I want a person to live life with me.
I suppose what I am describing is a wife.

I prayed about it today, among other things.
God said, "My grace is sufficient for you"
I should be looking to God rather than people. I don't really have much choice right now anyways.

Psalm 73:25,26